Sunday, November 21, 2010
my thoughts for today
These days my mom had been telling me that she feels dizzy all the time. And today I accompanied her to see the doctor at a clinic nearby. The doctor said she's fine. Only that her blood pressure is low and she's advised to take blood test for details. She will only have it tomorrow as she needs to puasa(fast) before that. I'm not sure what can I do to make her feel better so I googled about it. It says massaging at the back of the neck and feet helps. So I tried my best. Only at this moment I noticed the white hair and wrinkles my mom has. Suddenly one of Jay Chou's songs, 听妈妈的话(Listen To Your Mother) popped out in my head. The lyrics goes like 美丽的白发...which means beautiful white hair. My mom has grown old. She's no longer the young mother that has been taking care of me since I was born. Thanks to her that I am able to grow up happily and healthily. Now it's time for me to take care of her. But I think I'm not ready yet. After all, I don't have the ability to earn stable income since I've not yet stepped into the working field. Sometimes I would complain to her that why did she marry so late. Well she's 56 now and I'm only 19. I'm not the eldest though. My big sis is 22 but that doesn't mean she can support the family. Maybe I'm being rude to my mom but hey, for a woman to marry a man at the age of 30+ is way too old to me. But in any ways, I'm still grateful to my mom for giving birth to me and taking care of me for all these years. Without you, I am nobody. So what I hope now is faster start my degree and graduate and start working. That's why I keep complaining about why Multimedia Computing course needs 4 years time to graduate. Should be 3 years enough ady eh...~.~ btw I haven't book my flight ticket to Kuching yet this coming 26 Dec...apuuuu...you must be wondering why.