Being A Hypocrite - Good or Bad ?

I am a hypocrite.

And I like to be one, too.

Although there is always a saying like this,

I find it hard to change my habit of being such a b****.

In a good way, of course.

But sometimes,

I do feel suffer cos I suppress my feelings too much.

That is why I tend to "close" my heart so that I feel nothing.

And that is also how my blog got its name.

Empty

I always thought that when a person has a good-looking/attractive appearance, he/she will always have confidence in himself/herself. But I was wrong. The fact that I did not show confidence in myself when I cosplayed Tifa Lockhart proves it. Was kinda disappointed with my performance. I should have been putting aside my shyness and be friendlier and more outspoken to people surrounding. This concludes that confidence cannot be built through outer beauty only but must come together with inner beauty. Somehow I get really jealous of those people who have high self-esteem and know what they want in life. Looking at myself, I feel like I'm a lost kid who resists to grow up and only lives in her own dreamland. Like Peter Pan. Right at this moment, all I see is darkness.