I have made a big decision in my life recently. A huge one, really. At least, to me. And before it's been confirmed, I'm not going to tell anybody about this matter. Am still waiting for the result. Hopefully I am not making a wrong decision and everything will be fine. And if it's God's will to not approve this change, I have nothing to argue but accept it. If this goes well, then I'm really really really gonna work hard for the change to not regretting my sudden drastic decision. Or else, I would just end up as terrible as before. This is what I ask for, Lord. A change.