Still remember an old post of mine about me having a hard time to sleep? Well here's a part 2. But this time it isn't about banana trees. It is something else. Something horrible enough to make me depressed for a couple of days. Here's how the story goes...
Have you ever watched a movie...uh no, a documentary, more precisely, entitled "The Music Industry Exposed"? It has been broadcast a year ago. But I just watched it last week. And that's the reason of my depression.
From the title itself, I believe you can have a rough guess about what does this documentary reviewing about. But I think not many of you would guess it right. If you haven't watched it you would never understand why was I in such a state of depression after watching it. Maybe you would think I was too sensitive or I took this matter too seriously but I couldn't help it. I had a real shock when I first started to watch the documentary. Cos I never expect what I saw.
I don't really want to talk about the details cos I don't want to make myself depressed even more. Anyway, briefly, I would say it reviews about the involvement of Illuminati in the music industry. Especially Hollywood. According to Wikipedia, Illuminati is a name given to several groups, both historical and modern, and both real and fictitious. But in modern times and also in this documentary, this term actually refers to an organization which acts as a shadowy "power behind the throne", controlling world affairs through present day governments and corporations, the masterminds behind events that will lead to the establishment of a New World Order. If you ever notice some popular songs, there're always these similar words in the song lyrics such as New World Order, Rain Man...etc. Actually all these words have their specific meanings inside the songs. I never know what does a Rain Man means until I watched this doc. It actually means the devil. The Satan. I bet you must be thinking what does it got to do with the songs. Have you ever wonder why all these songs kept repeating the same lyrics?
Tell you the truth, it is because those singers are singing these words for Satan. They have sold their souls to the devil in order to become famous/rich. In other words, for FAME/MONEY. In exchange, they need to embrace the devil in any way they can. This includes song lyrics, music videos, concerts, etc. That is why we often see screenshots like money falling, black-and-white checkers, goat's head/horn, pyramid and so on in some music videos. In fact, those are the symbols/signs of satanism and it proves the worship of Satan in those artists. Hard to believe, eh? There are more examples in the doc that explains further in details which I do not feel like writing them down here. Cos I'm trying not to think too much about it. So if you are curious and want to know more, please do not hesitate to watch this documentary. I bet it'd scare the hell out of ya.
Anyway, I still remember the night when I woke up at around 2am all of a sudden. Cos I felt I was sweating all over during my sleep. Cold sweat I suppose. I knew the trauma after watching the documentary still hasn't gotten out of me so I got up instead of forcing myself to sleep back. I felt scared and went to find my housemates to accompany me but of course, they slept already. I got no choice but to turn on the laptop and find anyone who's still online to chat with. I needed to tell someone how I felt. It's not good to keep things by myself. I gotta release the pressure. So I found this friend in facebook and started to chat with him. Just the moment I wanted to express my thoughts, I started to cry. Naturally. Oh gosh. It's been a long time since I last cried. I felt hopeless and didn't know what else to believe. This world has corrupted and everyone's following the devil's order. Darkness has come. The end of the world will be coming soon. My heart sank and all I knew was I was weeping on my bed in silence...
But luckily, I'm getting over it slowly now. So no worries. I believe in miracles. I believe in God. I promise I'll be strong and stay positive. I will survive.
-written in 2009-